and the versa song was on and the versa song was on...

A spokesman for the team told TMZ that instead of canceling the holiday party entirely, "We decided to keep it -- shifting the focus a bit to make it also an event where the Bengals family could gather in the wake of the tragedy."

The rep also told us team owner Mike Brown gave a speech honoring Henry's memory and led a moment of silence in his honor.

The Ravens, the last team that Chris Henry played against, didn't know he had died Thursday morning when they began their morning meeting in Baltimore. But they knew he was in bad shape and head coach John Harbaugh called up quarterbacks coach Hue Jackson to say a few words and lead a prayer.
 
"He had a gleam in his eye when I saw him that last time. I was so proud and excited of what he'd been able to do," Jackson said after the Ravens practiced Thursday. "That's why it's so tough. The last time I saw him he was hurt and getting carted off the field. A good guy. And those guys who played with him will tell you that."

That was back on Nov. 8 when Henry dislocated his forearm in the Bengals 17-7 win over the Ravens. But it was none tougher than Wednesday afternoon after Jackson's quarterbacks meeting when he got the heads-up, sickening text from Bengals head coach Marvin Lewis.

Chris Henry's fiancee, Loleini Tonga, had no visible injuries ... law enforcement told TMZ


A law enforcement official in North Carolina tells us they "observed no visible injuries" on Tonga at the scene of the accident.

Cops said there was a "domestic situation" just before Henry fell out of the back of the truck. Authorities are investigating whether Henry jumped off the truck or whether he was thrown.

The official says they are investigating the possibility the Cincinnati Bengal was thrown from the truck after Tonga swerved back and forth.

There was a similar reaction around the teams where Henry has former teammates and they echoed the same sentiments his currents mates did. He had, indeed turned the corner. The Buffalo News got one testimony.

"It was very sad. Tragic news. I think for the guys that know him, it's very different than the public perception of him," said Bills quarterback Ryan Fitzpatrick, who threw two touchdowns to Henry last season. "The trouble that he got in the past and all that, everybody knows that he's a great guy. He really had his share of problems but really got his life on track. Obviously, everybody's hearts and thought and prayers go out to his family, his fiancée, his kids ... . I can tell you that everybody loved him in the locker room. He was a great teammate. It's going to be really hard for those guys because of how much they really cared for him."

Like all quarterbacks, Fitzpatrick liked to throw to Henry.

"He was such a talent. Carson likes to call him 'The next Randy Moss.' That's what he called him," Fitzpatrick said. "The way he played on the football field, the passion that he played with, how much he loved the game and really the chance that the Bengals gave him because they knew what kind of person that he was and the talent he possessed. I'm still trying to grasp what really happened because it's such tough news and a shock to hear."

If you don't think the NFL is a brethren, you know now as Fitzpatrick described the scene in the Bills locker room.

"When the news broke, everybody was gathered around the TV, watching. It's always something you never want to see happen, especially somebody in the NFL brotherhood. It affects everybody more than people realize," he said.

The Vikings, who just beat the Bengals last Sunday in Minneapolis, have two former teammates who also saw Henry change his life.

"The guy had a good heart, even though he didn't always use the best judgment," said safety Madieu Williams to The Minneapolis Star-Tribune. "He always had a good heart. He was a guy who loved life, loved his family, loved his kids. He was an extremely hard worker and loved the game of football. It's sad to see that he won't get to see his kids again.

"A lot of the guys in Cincinnati said he was going down the right path. There were a lot of guys rooting for him. He matured a lot over the years. You saw the maturity and the way he handled himself at the end of last season and this season. You saw the growth and hoped that it would continue for him. It's unfortunate that it won't."

Fullback Naufahu Tahi was in the same agency with Henry and got to know him through his cousin, Bengals draft pick Fui Vakapuna.

"During the offseason, we hung out. Our agent did a client weekend in Vegas. [Henry] was there with his fiancée," Tahi said. "I was there with my cousin, Fui who was with the Bengals, and has the same agency. We hung out and that same weekend went up to Salt Lake for Fui's wedding. We hung out and had a lot of fun. It was fun to hang out with him. You could tell he made a lot of changes in his life. His demeanor and his attitude was different. This is a horrible thing to hear about. He was doing great. He was a lot happier and more excited to play football. Just his personality, he was a great guy."
 
Justin Smith and Ahmad Brooks of the 49ers, defensive players that overlapped Henry's time in Cincinnati, weighed in from the Coast.

Smith: "It's sad. He was a talented guy. When I played with him he was a good guy, quiet in the locker room. He kept to himself for the most part. From everything that it sounded like, he was getting back on track and this happens. My feelings go out to him and his family."
 
Brooks: "It was sad to hear. You hate to see somebody go. He was a good guy. We've all made bad decisions throughout our life, but he grew from it, he learned from it and he had a family, so I'm definitely sad to hear that happen. I knew him very well. I'm just sad to hear that and I'll pray for him, I'll pray for everybody."

Also affected by the news were the Redskins, a team that lost the leader of their defense two years ago during the season when Sean Taylor was shot to death in his home during a robbery.
 
"It's just something another team has to go through," said cornerback Carlos Rogers in the Washington locker room Thursday. "With Sean, we were close. He was like a brother and it was hard to get over. You play harder for that person and let your actions speak on the field."

But it was Jackson that may have known Henry best.  

"This was a young man that struggled, but he wanted to do right," said Jackson, Henry's position coach his first two years. "I've been reading the quotes from the Bengals and they hit it right on the head. He needed to be directed and they had a lot of people bend over backwards there because they wanted to see Chris Henry succeed."

Jackson ticked off the list. Ray Oliver, the Bengals associate strength coach. Eric Ball, the director of player relations. Rusty Guy, the director of security "who I don't even know but must have done a hell of a job." Lewis. Bengals president Mike Brown.

Jackson could have added himself. When he scouted Henry at West Virginia, you could probably say that Jackson was a bit more enthusiastic about Henry than others in the process. Greg Seamon, the Bengals East Coast scout, also had high grades on him. The kid scored a touchdown per game in his last two years at WVU and there wasn't a criminal record. There were enough misgivings about his temper and maturity that his first-round talent fell into the third round. But no sign he would be arrested four times in half a year.

"Mike Brown wanted to know if he could come in here and work in a professional environment and produce and I thought so and I spent some time with him before the draft," Jackson said. "And if you look at it, he never had any problems at the facility. There were never problems around the team. Everything that happened to him happened away from football. When he was here, Chris Henry practiced hard and played hard."

Jackson doesn't sugarcoat it. It was at that team Christmas party in 2005 when he got wind that Henry was arrested for possession of marijuana the night before. He confronted him, found it was true, and then went to Brown and Lewis.

"I felt like I had let them down," Jackson said. "Chris needed to grow up, and we had a lot of people help. Eric Ball was my confidant when it came to Chris. I think you have to give Mike Brown and Marvin Lewis a lot of credit. Not a lot of people know what it takes to get the ins and outs of what people need to succeed in an environment. But Mike Brown never flinched. He never said to me, 'Hue, let's get rid of this guy.' Marvin had a lot of patience. It says a lot about them."

It says a lot about Jackson, and the last two days have been miserable. He says he has received calls from everyone who was in that receivers room in '05 and '06. He even heard from Reggie McNeal, a guy he hasn't heard from for a while.

"That room raised him. Chad raised him. T.J. raised him," Jackson said. "Chris is not a bad guy. The fact that all those guys called me or texted me, I think it shows that."

"Unbelievable hand-eye coordination," he said. "Tall. Lean. Big hands. Long strider. It didn't look like he was going fast, but the next thing you know, he was."

At some point Thursday, Jackson stopped himself.

"It's hard," he said. "It's hard to talk about him in the past tense."

Today I found out about 30 mintues ago that my grandma is in the hosptial.

My grandma is my hero and I can't picture my life without her.

I'll start from the begining:

My grandma had a stroke a couple of years ago

My jackass uncle who lives with my grandparents(I don't know why he's still living w/ them cuz he's about 35)

was being a complete dick

and from what I was told,

he was throwing stupid shit

and my grandma started throwing up

and when my grandpa went to check on my grandma

she was passed out.

My grandpa thinks that she had another stroke

and as of this moment;

she isn't breathing

So this is for my grandma:

I love you and I always will

If you haven't gathered from the title,

this is me venting about stuff

• Swine Flu-- Ok go get the stupid shot and then stop complaining.
• Tigger Woods-- The man had about 10-15 mistresses
• Sexting--(people who send naked pictures of themselves via text)
• All of the fan girls who ''Are in love with Johnohh and Martin Johnson''and who don't know the other members' names
• The girls who say 'that I'm gonna go cut b/c my boyfriend broke up with me.' Okay get over it ir was probly for the best
• The kids who have been prep forever and know they try to pull of the emo/punk/scene trends and who buy Glamour Kills b/c its sold at Zumiez and *valley girl accent* 'Omg Zumiez is my favorite store' but my friend is like ''the people who work there can spot a ''newbie"
• The preps who go into Hot topic and try to act cool
• Along with the scene kids.

And that is all.. FOR NOW!

I am the friend afraid to tell you that I'm bisexual, because you'd leave me for it.
I am the girl who loves to read and is pushed into the corner and beat up because of what I love to do.
I am no one. Just the kid that was pushed to far at school for being emo and cut a little too deep.
I'm the teenager who was kicked out of her house because I was caught hugging my girlfriend.
I am the woman who committed suicide just before I graduated high school. Since I'm a cheerleader, no one suspected it was coming.
I am the best friend who just found out she has AIDS, and is afraid to tell her parents because she'll be considered gay. My parents would never accept me if I was.
I am the athlete everyone expects to be perfect, when in reality I'm sneaking heroin between games.
I am the girl who is called a slut everyday because I can't afford to buy new clothes every year. My skirt doesn't cover what I want it to.
I am the sibling forced to clean their sister's blood off of the carpet. Why didn't I see it coming?
I am the boy who wakes up crying because the bruises my parents gave me hurt so much, but aren't even noticed because I'm always wearing the baggy clothes the kids in gangs wear.
I am the girl who got raped at twelve and am considered a whore because of it.
I am the gullible parent who let my child hurt themselves. No one can know this. We have to keep this secret.

I am the boy who never finished high school, because I got called a fag everyday.
I am the girl kicked out of her home because I confided in my mother that I am a lesbian.
I am the prostitute working the streets because nobody will hire a transsexual woman.
I am the sister who holds her gay brother tight through the painful, tear-filled nights.
We are the parents who buried our daughter long before her time.
I am the man who died alone in the hospital because they would not let my partner of twenty-seven years into the room.
I am the foster child who wakes up with nightmares of being taken away from the two fathers who are the only loving family I have ever had.
I wish they could adopt me. I am not one of the lucky ones. I killed myself just weeks before graduating high school.It was simply too much to bear.
We are the couple who had the realtor hang up on us when she found out we wanted to rent a one-bedroom for two men.
I am the person who never knows which bathroom I should use if I want to avoid getting the management called on me.
I am the mother who is not allowed to even visit the children I bore, nursed, and raised.
The court says I am an unfit mother because I now live with another woman.
I am the domestic-violence survivor who found the support system grow suddenly cold and distant when they found out my abusive partner is also a woman.
I am the domestic-violence survivor who has no support system to turn to because I am male.
I am the father who has never hugged his son because I grew up afraid to show affection to other men.
I am the home-economics teacher who always wanted to teach gym until someone told me that only lesbians do that.
I am the woman who died when the EMTs stopped treating me as soon as they realized I was transsexual.
I am the person who feels guilty because I think I could be a much better person if I didn't have to always deal with society hating me.
I am the man who stopped attending church, not because I don't believe, but because they closed their doors to my kind.
I am the person who has to hide what this world needs most, love.
I am the person ashamed to tell my own friends im a lesbian, because they constantly make fun of them.

Who are you?

Hey there Buzznet.Here are some of my clothing ideas for winter

1. .  ($24.99 at zumiez)  
2.   ($34.00 kohls.com)
3.   ($9.99 at kohls.com)
4.   ($29.99 at kohls stores)
5.     
6. ($19.50 at pacsun.com)
7.  ($9.99 at glamourkills.com)  
8.  ($16.50 at pacsun or pacsun.com)  
9.  (Now $9.99 at pacsun or pacsun.com)

total- $154.95

*This does not inculde shipping and handling and/or tax!

Using only song titles from ONE ARTIST, cleverly answer these questions. Try not to repeat a song title. It's harder than you think.

Pick Your Artist:Mayday Parade
Are you male or female:Jamie All Over
Describe yourself: So Far Away
How do you feel about yourself?:Champagne's for Celebrating (I'll Have a Martini)

Describe where you currently live:Ocean and Atlantic
If you could go anywhere, where would you go?: Anywhere but Here
Your best friend is:You Be the Anchor That Keeps My Feet on the Ground, I'll Be the Wings That Keep Your Heart in the Clouds

Your favorite color/shape is: Black Cat
What's the weather like?:Walk on Water or Drown
Favorite time of day:The End
If your life was a TV show, what would it be called?:The Last Something That Meant Anything
What is life to you?:If You Can't Live Without Me, Why Aren't You Dead Yet?
What is the best advice you have to give?: Three Cheers for Five Years
If you could change your name, what would it be?:Take This to HeartYour favorite food is:One Man Drinking Games
Thought for the Day:Save Your Heart
How would you like to die?: Center of Attention
Your soul's present condition: Get Up
The faults you can bear:Three Cheers for Five Years
Your motto:I'd Hate to Be You When People Find Out What This Song is About

Opening Credits: Bring Out Your Best-We The Kings

Waking Up: Down And Out-The Academy Is...

First Day At School: See You Around- Runner Runner

Falling In Love:Secret Valentine- We The Kings

Fight Song:This City Is Contagious- The Cab

Breaking Up: Seventeen Forever- Metro Station

Prom: The Authors- Versaemerge

Life: Stella- All Time Low

Mental Breakdown: Attention- The Academy Is...

Driving: Adam's Song- Blink-182

Flashback: Baby, We're Invincable- A Rocket to the Moon

Getting Back Together: Come One, Come All- All Time Low

Wedding: Boy Meets Girl- Evan Taubenfeld

Birth of Child: Shadow Of The Day- Linkin Park

Final Battle: So Obvious- Runner Runner

Death Scene: Six Feet Under the Stars- All Time Low

Funeral Song: Pour Some Sugar On Me- The Maine

End Credits: Girls Do What They Want- The Maine

Mojoes' had big bands play there just to name a few All Time Low, There For Tomorrow, Mayday Parade but they also had small bands play there too. A week they had small bands play too;opening for bigger bands or some of the members stay out after other shows and give EPs and make themselves known.

There, the guys from A Kidnap in Color and Love Me Electric also will discuss more about "Hometown Throwdown," why it is so important to have all-ages venues in the area and memories of one of the Southland's biggest venues.

"At first, I- I didn't believe that Mojoes' was closing. Now it's gonna be a lot harder for unknown bands to get new fans.That would mean that I would have to get a real job, I mean Mojoes' was my place that I'd go to get away from whatever was getting me down. I knew Marc pretty well and one day he said to me' Hey Seamus- Wanna work here?' and I was like 'Hell Yeah Marc. No questions asked. I mean just thinking about it now, Mojoes' got me into a lot of local bands and when they get big I can be like 'Ha! I listened to them before you did' and I don't know whats gonna happen know. It's come a long way but there's a part of me that wants it to still be open."My friend Seamus

"When I had first heard of Mojoes' closing, I had thought of how far it's come and how much it's accomplished within its time of being open," said Frank Rizzo, who's helped to organize "Hometown Throwdown" since its inception.

"I know Marc is very devoted to music and the acts that enter his venue that I don't think he could not be a part of music. So we all hope and pray that something around the area will pop up with Marc behind it. "The best thing about the venue is that you can see your favorite acts up on a stage very close to you. The intimacy and very great sound is a very big reason why Mojoes is a big name within the neighborhoods."

"Something I have really appreciated about Mojoes is, with each relocation, it has seemed that the venue has been able to further accommodate the needs of any locals and/or national touring acts, whether it be a bigger backstage area, band room or things to drink and eat.

"I've enjoyed the familiarity, the same fans coming out to the venue because it's like a second home to them where they know they can hear good (sometimes) music and see their friends.

"It's a place like Mojoes where bands can build a good fan base that will be there for them no matter what."

Love Me Electric guitarist and vocalist Joe Nicorata said he is hopeful the closure of Mojoes leads to something new for local musicians.

"When I heard Mojoes was closing, I knew it could only mean newer, bigger and better things are in store for South Side music," Nicorata said.

"Mojoes' closing marks an end of an era, but I know good things are in store."

Davey echoed those sentiments.

"It's bittersweet, really," he said of Mojoes' closing. "With every end comes a new beginning with more hope for growth.

"Mojoes has been a great starting point for a lot of us, bands and fans alike. But who wouldn't like to see a bigger better venue that allows for more opportunity in the coming year?"

Rizzo said the "Hometown Throwdown" shows always sell out.

"The bands who are playing Friday are bands who have started the very first 'Hometown Throwdowns,' " he said.

"I can think back to the first venue and how most of these bands shared the same bill in the same room of over 100 people, which was sold out."

"The bands are all friends and have known each other since the beginning and have all supported and worked hard for each other to help each other grow, and will continue to help each other in any way possible.'Hometown Throwdown' was created to give the fans a treat, where you could see all your favorite bands from the area in one night. The one goal was to have fun and expose each other's music to those who may not have found some bands online or in other areas."

Not surprisingly, Nicorata had only good things to say about the bands that share Friday's bill.

"A Kidnap in Color have been a staple in the South Side scene for years now. Their new material is very promising," he said.

"Last, but not least, You Me and Everyone We Know has a very catchy sound, and it's fun to finally do another 'Hometown Throwdown' with them."

Rizzo said Mojoes holds a ton of memories.

"The closure of Mojoes is definitely a chapter in many people's lives," he said, recalling that Mojoes once had an oxygen bar

"This way, also, kids who haven't been exposed to music much in their life now have an outlet to do so."

Davey said he's grateful for all Marc  has done for the local music scene.

"Marc has done probably more than I can state in a small paragraph, but most of all I think he's allowed a lot of local bands to grow, including ours.

"He's provided a home to national acts as well, garnering a reputation for having a solid mid-sized venue with a good sound system and great fans.

"Hopefully his current endeavors pan out, considering it would be such a loss to our entire music community to be without one of its strongholds.

"Everyone can understand the phrase 'bigger and better,' but what we all have to understand is that sometimes that takes time - not to mention giving up the old to bring in the new."

"Going back years ago, he took ownership and restored the reputation of the venue. He then turned it into a nationally known venue among touring bands.

"It is awesome to be able to play with and watch some of the best rock 'n' roll bands five minutes from home."

"I think Marc should be recognized for all his effort and work put into every show he does and for hosting each 'Hometown Throwdown,' " Rizzo added.

"From the start, Marc, myself and the bands have done everything in their power to make sure 'Hometown Throwdown' and Mojoes are very recognizable names by everyone in the area.

"And I think it's done that and much more - and even in different states, making the event as recognizable as Bamboozle and Warped Tour."

I miss everything about you

I miss you're smile

You're laugh

I trusted you and

know you're not here

My life is changing

I remember those sleepless nights

where I'd worry about you

And when you came back

you changed

I knew that when you came back

you would change a bit

But I never really knew how much you'd change

You were the guy I could go to if I needed to get away from it all

or if I needed to laugh about something

I could call you at 3 in the morning if I wanted to

And I think I need you the most.

I don't know who I am or who I'm supposted to be

I knew this when you were with me

and know I not know anything.

I'm questioning everything I know

Was this the life you wanted?

I would like to find out why you cut but I guess I can't do that

'Sup Buzznet?! Please note this is on my iTunes on the computer

• If Only They Knew By A Rocket to the Moon
• Past Praying For By Versaemerge
• August Is Over By We The Kings
• The Beach By All Time Low
• Skyway Avenue By We The Kings
• Baby, We're Invincable By A Rocket to the Moon
• Mr. Right By A Rocket to the Moon
• The Blank Static Screen By Versaemerge
• Chasing A Rock Star By The Friday Night Boys
• No One Can Touch Us(Feat. Alex Gaskarth) By Sing It Loud 
• Cities Bulit On Sand By Versaemerge
• Pour Some Sugar On Me(Def Lepard Cover) By The Maine
• See You Around By Runner Runner
• Annabelle By A Rocket to the Moon
• Letdown By This Providence
• Bring Out You're Best By We The Kings

What are some of you're top played songs?

I got it today at Target. The Weekend: Friday is one of 3 EPs from Forever the Sickest Kids.

The tracklisting

1. Do or Die
2. Tough Love
3. She Likes(Bittersweet Love)
4. Take It Slow
5. Hip Hop Chick
6. What Do You Want from Me

Bounus Track:

Hawkbot-feat. Chae Hawk

 My 2nd book review is called Vibes by Amy Kathleen Ryan.

This is all about to change. Kristi's mother becomes Chief of Surgery working normal hours. Her father decides to pay a visit after two years. And she's partnered with Gusty for the school's self improvement Character Education Project. What else can happen? The story is told in the first person, in the voice of the psychic teenaged girl. Her voice is unique and fresh.

This is realistic fiction set in today's world. The main character's parents are separated and her mother is a workaholic surgeon climbing the ladder at the local hospital. The main character, Kristie, is unhappy and disconnected from her parents (her surgeon father has been volunteering in Africa for a couple of years). Kristi tries very hard to be different and disconnected from her fellow students (wearing heavy makeup and dressing in homemade weird clothes from trash found in garbage bins on the street). As with many of today's teenage girls, Kristi uses profanity and thinks she is ugly and makes other negative statements about herself. Also typical of real life, many of the teenaged boys are more interested in looking at her large breasts than looking at her face.

Kristi is a self-conscious and headstrong young woman who has a poor image of herself as being overweight. She is a healthy eater - meaning that she occasionally likes to overindulge on things like pizza with everything on it or calorie-rich desserts, when her mother would rather she ate steamed vegetables and tofu. Like many people, she uses eating food as a way to comfort herself when she feels sad, depressed, alone, or rejected. She believes other people, especially ones she considers to be "beautiful," are thinking bad thoughts about her - that she's fat, ugly, and "sick" looking - and she at least partially believes that what they think is true, though she hates that they think such things.

The school she attends, Journeys, is different; its curriculum stresses independent thinking and student participation in contributing ideas about individual projects, such as one Kristi's friend Jacob Flax comes up with to improve himself. She doesn't like the school, believing that the curriculum is too touchy-feely and that she's not learning much, and she imagines most of the other students don't like her and are thinking bad things about her. The negative vibes they put off that she picks up are the biggest reason why she doesn't like going to school at Journeys. On top of all that, Kristi thinks that her mother drove her father away from them, and she often hates her mother, with whom she lives, and the fact that her father abandoned them.

Kristi gets matched up with Gusty for a project where students are teamed with a "peer partner" of the opposite gender.  Kristi thinks that Gusty really doesn't want to be teamed up with her, and that anyone as hot as Gusty would only agree to being partners with her to make the best of a bad situation. She believes that if you're beautiful, you must be correspondingly shallow and stupid, and that beauty is nature's way of compensating for these other defects.
However, Kristi gradually finds out that most of what she thought was true isn't true at all. She may be very tuned in to the vibes people throw off, to the point of sometimes being able to read minds, but her interpretation of what she reads in the vibes is not always accurate. Gusty doesn't think she's fat and has paid another student twenty dollars to switch partners so he can be teamed with her. She discovers that Gusty is not as dumb as she thought but is smart in many different ways. Also, when her father comes to town from Africa, where he's been doing medical work, she learns more about him, and she develops more of a feeling of respect for her mother.But she also has a secret that helps alienate her from all those she can't stand, she can hear what others are thinking, she can read minds. The mind reading was supposed to be used as a tool- I think for Kristi's development and for her to deal with her father's leaving, her mother would start drinking, her best friend's abandonment but that's what made this book different from other books

On my note: I'm gonna log out. Its after midnight here.

It's my friend Ian's anivarsy for being hospitizaled for depression and these are songs that reminded/remind me of Ian

Me, You and My Medication by Boys Like Girls 

The Great Ecsape by Boys Like Girls 

Like We Used Too by A Rocket to the Moon

One Man Drinking Games by Mayday Parade 

Therapy by All Time Low

Two Days Old by Cash Cash

Always Attract by You Me at Six

 Champange's For Celebrating(I'll Have a Martini) by Mayday Parade

This Is Our Town by We The Kings  

Lullabies by All Time Low

Use Sombody by Kings of Leon

My first book review is called Crash Into Me. Written by Albert Borris.

I give it a 5/5.

The one thing Owen, Frank, Audrey, and Jin-Ae all have in common is: they all want to die. They meet after they all tried to commit suicide.They made a pact that said that they would go on a trip in the summer.They all go on a trip to famous celebrities, authors, and sport players tombstones that are in the US. When they go on this trip they decide that at Death Valley California U.S.A they have to off themselves. Once in California they go visit Forrest,Owen's brother's tombstone Along the way, they bond over their own dark impulses prior. As they drive cross-country bonding over their dark impulses, sharing their deepest secrets and desires, living it up, hooking up, and becoming true friends, each must decide whether life is worth living--or if there's no turning back. Owen can't remember a time in his life when he was truly happy. Ever since his brother's death when we was seven, his life has been dull, lonely, and slow, punctuated by numerous suicide attempts.

The four of them make a suicide pact-they will take a cross country road trip from New Jersey to Death Valley, visiting the graves of famous people who committed suicide, and at the end of the line, they'll all end their lives together. Owen's eyes, and his character is developed through a series of online chats, top ten lists, recollections of the past, and his time quietly observing the present. The alternating modes of character disclosure build suspense throughout the book, causing readers to seriously ponder the outcome of the road trip-but Borris keeps you guessing until the very end. This is a novel of desperation and loneliness, and of the strong compulsion that humankind has to attempt to make connections. Unexpected, heartbreaking, and raw, Crash into Me takes readers on a car trip they'll never forget.

Crash Into Me is a morbid spin on the much loved "epic road trip novel"- all of the characters set out on the trip with the set decision of dying when they reach the end. While in the psych ward he meets Jin-Ae, a closeted lesbian who goes to his school who can not deal with her parents' super restrictiveness and looks to suicide as an escape.A plan forms to meet each other to head out on a cross country road trip to hit up all the graves of famous suicides ending in Death Valley where they will all take their own lives. The novel is fast-paced and completely engrossing. Interwoven through-out the main story are IM conversations and lists created by the group about best ways to die, top famous suicides, top mass murders, and a lot of other random facts about death.The characters are completely infatuated with death and dying and have almost encyclopedic knowledge about celebrity suicides and death in general. Owen,Frank, Jin-Ae, and Audrey have never been happy. On the way, they find friendship and happiness that they have never had before. Maybe there is more to life then the pain and the sadness that they have had experienced.

In my American History class, we get in a lot of debates about anything (poltics,citizenship,war just to name a few) and things always get heated.When I do take part in them I'm either shaking or red and I don't usually take part I only do when I have to get my point across.I tend to take the Europeans' Point of View not the Americans'.I'm an American citizen but there are times when I don't think myself as an American citizen.We were debating about citizenship and I asked this kid named Ted. This is the bit that we said or heard

I'm the bold

He's the underlined

 "But Ted what would you do if we aren't American citizens?"

"What are then you doing in America?"

"For  better educidution,better jobs, and to get away from it all. "

"Then get out of my country you.. tradior

"Ted I'm not a 'tradior'. Nothing gives you that right to call me names"

" Are you an American citizen? If you're not then get out of my country."

So I'm sure you have figured this out.

I have no problem talking about drugs,cutting and everything else.

But I think this is a bit more important.

So one of my friends' dads got deported a couple of weeks ago.

Things have been a bit weird around school with my friends and what-not.

I thought of this friends' dad as my own dad. My "dad" drinks and smokes and is never completely sober

so things are kind of hard when he comes up in every day life.

We have been through pretty much everything over the past year.

Today, I got A Rocket to The Moon On Your Side

The track-listing

1. Annabelle

2. Mr.Right

3. She's Killing Me

4. On A Lonely Night(feat.Caitlin Harnett)

5. Dakota

6. Life Of The Party

7. Like We Used To

8. Where Did You Go?

9. Sometimes(feat.Brandon Wronski of Eye Alaska)

10. Baby Blue Eyes

11. Give A Damn

12. On Your Side

I always had a different A Rocket to the Moons' songs stuck in my head.It was a different song everyday. Ha. I only got it a couple of hours ago and I liked it.

Hey.I droped my phone way too many times. Once again, I thank Jenny for inspiring me. Thanks Jenny!

This is Evan Taubenfeld. He was on the Snakes and Suits tour with The Academy Is... I like his sound and his voice it's very different. He was the guirtarst for Avril Lavegine but then left to do his own solo project. (http://www.myspace.com/evantaubenfeld )

This is Sing It Loud. They did a duo with Alex from All Time Low. Me and Siobhan heard No One Can Touch Us when we were in-line at the Maines' booth on Warped Tour( http://www.myspace.com/singitloud )

 Hit the Lights.Their from Ohio.They were on "the Sassy Back" tour with Cobra Starship and Forever the Sickest Kids.(http://hitthelights.buzznet.com/user/)

MandyK. We talked to them on Warped Tour and Siobhan bought their ep and they signed it for her.(http://mandykband.buzznet.com/user/)

A poem written when I had to write this for my English class last year

We were best friends then one day, some

"new" kid came and you're not the same person I knew.

Together you smoked, did drugs, drank and cut.

You thought that you knew everything.

I know that I'm not the same person I was when we first met.

You changed me and not in a good way.

I tried to forget you but that didn't happen.

And know, I don't know who I am or who I'm supposed to be.

Yes I will admit, I'm not the same person and I'm not forgeting who I was.

But atleast I knew who I was and I will never forget that person and I still remember who I am today.

Unlike you.

Know whenever you and your parents fight, how come my name still comes up?

"What ever happened to that girl?" and

"She was a good influence on you then you had to chase her away."

I still remember who you are and I lie awake at night and I wonder "

What wuold happen if we were still friends?"

and then I remembered that you were a druggie, drinker, cutter,  backstabing lier.

So tonight was the OP presents tour.

The line was a bitch. I wanted to smak the girl behind me.

They were talking about where they thought were the maine would be staying this eveing.

DUMB BITCHES!!!

nicksantino

"Chicago is my favorite city. Other than Boston."

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Hell yeah. It was fun tonight. wow..

I'd like to go see A Rocket to The Moon again.

I went to go get a picture of the OP tour bus before we left and I SAW THE MAINE!

Jared told me not to get ran over.

Garrett said "Hello" to me and I said "hello" back.Cause my mommy taught me to say hello back to someone.

Me and Siobhan got our pictures taken with HALVO(Siobhan said that his jacket was cold and he smelled good. I don't know.) and Nick Schemica and one of his friends(and for those of you who cre his friend Kevin said that he didn't want to mess it up after Nick asked him to if he wanted to get in the picture.)  and Jerry from VE.